The Mechanical Mind in a Mechanical Mode

I’m back after a life’s hiccup, and it made me wonder about our mind and how it at times functions in almost a mechanical way (hence my blogs slogan). I read something interesting about the mind and how it shuffles through memories. When we are faced with problems and situations it’s possible that our mind subconsciously shuffles through memories within seconds to find something relevant for the current situation.

For example you’re in falling wreckage and you’re pinned. Your mind shuffles through memories and brings one of a film you watched about a dog. You wonder why this thought that arrived and then you realise you could get a nearby dog you just saw a few seconds ago to bring you something to pry yourself out to safety. Thus saving your life.

This could be the famous shuffling of memory in our mind that we call “that moment my life flashed before my eyes”. And that life being your mind looking for something relevant to the situation.

In this thought a little poem popped up in my head, as i was recently in an accident and thought of something similar. I might post it after this actually.


Dream Capture

As the title implies things are beginning to get rather weird in regards to my dreams. It began a few weeks ago and now is becoming more frequent. I didn’t realise what was happening until a few days ago and thought i would blog about this because there may be more people out there like me or who have experienced this or something similar.

I’ve had a few tough times these past few days and things although difficult have been rather okay. But sometimes we hold these dark times inside. As we understand, these held darkness’s can build up and cause damage we don’t necessarily know is there. I found one of these for me that is in the form of dreams. Dreams sometimes take us places we’ve never been before; sometimes dark and scary places and other times fun and happy places. Never did i think that the good places in dreams could be a threat. I was inside a dream, a dream now which i don’t seem to remember, but at the time was vivid. But what happened was that when it was time to wake up, i couldn’t. I tried to wake myself up from the inside but the dream kept me back, almost as if it would sedate me in order to keep me in. The dream can eat up a good 4-5 hours of my day or sometimes even more.

Now as scary as it sounds, i analysed it for a few hours and realised that dreams are our subconscious and therefore they can react to how we live in the day. We can have a direct impact on what we dream, even though for most people dreams are uncontrollable or even passive. Sometimes life becomes difficult and life is the days we spend awake. When we sleep we can often be freed from the pains of daily life. What i realised was, what if the dream isn’t restraining me, what if i am restraining myself to be freed from the dream. If the dream world is the safe place, then what’s to tell the mind not to live there. As weird and wrong as it sounds, it wouldn’t be a surprise if there were people in this world who’d choose to live in the dream world where they can be the architects of their surroundings. It does however sound a lot like putting yourself into a coma. Of course i do not want to be stuck in my dream world as i understand that life is difficult and there’s no doubt about it, but we do have to fight, not just the world itself, but ourselves. We are always in a constant battle with our deepest darkest self. Now we just have to believe it is worth the fight.


The Anonymity of Dream Lucidity

I am of course talking about dreams. The term “Lucid Dream” is most normally defined as having a dream where the dreamer is aware that they are dreaming, thus also being able to manipulate and control aspects of the dream. I have been able to lucid dream for so long i can’t actually remember when it first began. All i remember is that i could control my dreams and after years i then realised what it was and researched a hell of a lot to find out all i could. This doesn’t happen to me every single day but out of a week, it’ll be at least three to four days. The main reason i believe I am writing this, is because of a few reasons. One of them is that so many people out there don’t even know they have this condition/ability. One may ask, why is it important that i should know? And from my experience and findings i have found out that it can be good and bad.

Initially i think of the movie Inception for their well developed modern movie based on lucid dreaming. If you haven’t watched it, it is definitely worth a watch or two (and i don’t mean sell your watch). when i dream, most of the time i am able to remember them, either because i just do, or i focus on remembering it as soon as i wake up (by repeating it in my head), or even by re-iterating (or memorizing) the dream while inside my dream so that by the time i wake up, I’ve already remembered it. Some of the good things i have managed to get from controlling my dreams are; so that i am able to win or succeed in the dream and then i wake up in better moods, or even become something really awesome inside it, like a super fighting world saving cybernetic being. For example, once i had a dream in which the city was being destroyed by a humungous monster, a bit like in the movie Cloverfield, and rather than running away, i realised that i was dreaming and stopped running. My friends were shouting, “What are doing? Run!” And i told them that this is a dream. One thing i have always noticed, is that your projections in the dream (the people inside the dream) never seem to either like or understand when you try to tell them that you’re in a dream and they can often become angered (after all your telling someone they don’t exist). But anyway to cut it short, i decided to concentrate and turn myself into a superhero, e.g. fly, super strength, super speed and so on…well just think of Superman… well without the underwear. Well without the underwear on the front, not without wearing underwear…yikes! And by becoming a superhero i defeated the monster. All i have to do in the dream is tell myself that this is a dream and that i can do anything. Then by willing myself to fly i am able to fly.

I noticed that if my dreams could be that immersive, vivid and sometimes even have a good storyline, then one thing i absolutely love about them is that most of my stories actually come from dreams. I have several novels in development and all were detailed dreams where i could vividly be apart of the story and control myself, and this in turn would make me wake up feeling like it was all real. All that detail makes an awesome novel and they aren’t just normal stories either, some of them i believe are quite unique. Sometimes however dreams can be so immersive and believable that you actually think it is real. One example of this would be this time i woke up and was late to meet my girlfriend. While still at home i fell to my knees saying, “Nooooo, i stood her up! How could i!” but then while on my knees i thought, “but wait, i would never leave my girlfriend hanging there like that. It’s not me. This must be a dream.” I then counted down “3…2…1…” and shouted “WAKE UP!” And i woke up realising i had several hours still left before meeting up with my girlfriend. Freaky or what? Oh yes and i can wake myself up whenever i want from within the dream as you have just read. Yikes, so much writing…hmmm…i know… here’s some pictures just to break the tension.

Super SquirrelLovey CatsFluffy The Destroyer


Now that we’re back from our break, i do however also suffer from heart palpitations whereby at times my heart rate will increase exponentially. The pounding can even drain my energy completely or hurt my chest. If i have a vivid lucid dream, then my mind is surely much more active while I’m sleeping. Therefore many times i have woken up after a chase sequence, or fight, or worse and because my mind is so immersed into the dream, when i wake up, my heart is already pounding like it is going to explode. It has even been said that lucid dreaming can cause children and even adults to wet the bed, not aware that they have done so because of the real-ness of a dream. So many children out there hide in embarrassment not knowing they do this due to having a lucid dream. One example would be going to the toilet in your dream, but because your mind is so immersed, it also happens in real life.

With all the movies i watch and games i play, i always have crazy detailed and normally action packed dreams, thus i am always exhausted when i wake up, which is especially not good when one has to go to work. Two days ago i had a dream that i became a Titan, yep a Greek God with great power…i know it sounds funny, but i am a weird human being so it works. I used my super strength as a Titan to free my family and friends from a hundred sealed metal gates imprisoning them for eternity. I used my hands to tear apart the metal bars like vines in a jungle. The only problem came, was when i woke up. My arms were in pain for the whole day especially around the biceps. It’s almost like having the power of the Gods (so to speak) is so much power for a mortal such as myself that when transforming back into the human (or in this case waking up), the body can’t handle the power and strength that was used and so you feel pain. This happens all the time to me, whether i land on my feat from falling from the skies or get punched in the gut by a robot, i wake up with the pains as if it had happened for real. I think this is where the mind takes it too far and thinks it was real and therefore makes the pain real. Or maybe it has something to do with the mind believing it to be real and so makes the body react as if it were real, e.g. muscles tensen continuously or rapidly resulting in muscle pain. You may not believe me, but i go through this every week; different dreams, different after shocks/pains. To bad my General Practitioner doesn’t seem to see this as a condition and therefore i have to live with it. I do however also see it as an ability of the mind. Maybe the mind’s psychic ability is enhanced. You might not believe me but I’ll write it anyway. From dreaming i also learnt how to drive a car when i was 17. My mind felt that the dream was so real that by the time i had woken up, i had learnt the techniques and was up and running on my first ever driving lesson. The instructor even asked me how many lessons i had done before, and when i told him that this was my first one he didn’t believe me. Of course at the time i felt i couldn’t just tell him i had learnt it in my sleep. But i guess now i have, to you and the world. The same thing happened with learning martial arts; dreamt it, and could do the moves when i woke up.

Talking of psychic, there have even been stories of people dreaming places and knowing it’s a dream and then waking up. Then after many years they have gone on a holiday and found that exact street and therefore know exactly where they are going. Weird, but then again so much in this world is unknown and we will always have a lot to learn. There is so much i could talk about here but maybe another time. I know for some this will be hard to grasp and others will be like “Oh my God, i lucid dream” or “Oh my God, I’m a weirdo” but trust me, weird is the best, for weird is unique. Is it all true? Is it all real? Do we believe it? I guess that’ll always be your opinion, but all i can say is…

The Truth Is Out There

Thanks for reading. Please do comment or even tell us if you’ve experienced anything similar, or even lucid dreaming itself.