I thought I’d put this one in there as it may be small and simple but unusual nevertheless.
I was in my room and on my computer, doing the usual research for job applications and so on. I poured a glass of water and set it on my desk. As i typed away to exhaustion i reached for the drink and missed, knocking it over. Those who know my computer setup (hardly anyone) will know of the junction upon junction of cables, plugged into a multitude of sockets and extensions all leading to one main outlet. The water spilt on the table and immediately ran its way down behind the table and onto the wires and plug sockets. Sparks flew like mini fireworks upon my feet. I jumped down to power everything off but by then a fire had started and was quickly spreading. I tried to put out the fire but it spread to my whole room and i was choking somehow trapped in my room without a way out. The smoke became unbearable and i began choking heavily. And then i made myself wake up.
I woke up coughing and choking. I immediately took control and calmed myself down but the taste of the dark threatening smoke lingered for much of the day. Bizarro. Bizarro indeed.
I was sitting on a stool just minding my own business when a tingly sensation infiltrated through my body. I thought nothing of it and carried on with what i was doing. All of a sudden, with no other warning, my body froze and i feel from the stool to the ground face down. I couldn’t move. Everyone ran up to me and asked if i was ok and i replied,
“Don’t worry, it’s ok, i’m just in sleep paralysis.”
No one had a clue what i was talking about as this usually happens when i tell people something that breaks the boundaries of their world. I thought this was it but it got worse. My vision became blurry to the point where all was in soft focus and then even that became even worse to the point where all i could see was a blur of colours. I was blind. This couldn’t be real but nevertheless i began to panic a little. It couldn’t get any worse right? I was wrong. I began shouting to everyone for help. I was actually scared for once. As i shouted a burst of two extremely loud sound frequencies perforated my ear drums. One was a really low frequency and the other a really high frequency; together forming a bleeding melody from hell. The sound was never-ending and i found myself deaf. My ultimate fear of ultimate paralysis, where i cannot move, see or hear. I knew i could still shout but it didn’t matter anymore, all was lost.
I had to wake myself up. I knew i was dreaming, but why was i stuck? Was it the fear? I shouted at the top of my lungs once more and like an exit from a coma i awoke in the real world still screaming. It took a second before i realised my scream from the dream had continued into reality and so i stopped before anyone in the house had heard. My head pulsated in pain and my heart was pounding harder than ever but my body was still in sleep paralysis. My body lay dead and my arms crossed over my chest. I calmed down as my body melted from the sleep paralysis and after a few minutes i got up to drink some water.
I don’t get nightmares often. To be honest i am pretty sure this is my life’s third nightmare. This was by far the worst nightmare i have ever had. And the worst part was that this is the first time a nightmare has seeped so far into reality after waking up. Usually i am able to wake myself up from within the dream world earlier, or even embrace death in the dream, because death always wakes me up, even though i am left with the cause of death as a waking pain for the whole day; a downside to lucid dreaming. But this wasn’t death, this was torture and torture is always the worst.
Something extraordinary happened. I have had lucid dreams for a very long time and usually the lucidity keeps to itself, as in the dream remains in the dream and reality remains where it is. I have spoken before about how lucidity has had affects on my body whether it is tiredness and exhaustion from a very active dream or emotions seeped into reality by dream content. This time i managed to do something else, something much more advanced. Using a visual pattern within my dream i was able to associate each shape within the iterative pattern with certain body parts. For example i would find a small hexagonal shape within the pattern and associate it with my left arm, and another shape with my right arm, and maybe a different shape entirely for my leg, or even my waist.
I managed to use the formula in my dream and move my arm and then when my arm dropped i semi woke up and noticed exactly that. I then fell back to sleep and elevated my leg and then woke up as it dropped. The final movement i managed to make, was turning my body to my right. When i woke up for that i knew this wasn’t just a coincidence, plus remembering my dream only strengthened the thought of what was happening.
There are so many things in life we don’t yet know and i would love to delve deeper into this and work out how i managed to sleep move with control. Who knows maybe I’ll work it out or maybe it was just a lucky once time only, even though it was the second time.
Thank you for reading and hopefully i haven’t freaked you out.