Look Ahead Bunny

Danger Bunny

 

There was once a little frightened bunny,

That was too afraid to hop;

It looked down at it’s trembling feet,

Thinking it would just flop.

Then one day it twitched it’s nose,

And looked up straight ahead;

Then took a leap and then a stride,

And rid itself of dread.

 

Jobs, and the Fear of being Great

Creatives, we call ourselves.

Artists, we call ourselves.

Freelancers, we call ourselves.

We are tomorrow, if we believe.

We sleep late, we try to wake up early, we socialise less than we should. Our computers, pens, pencils, paintbrushes become our tools of priority. Food, exercise, communication somehow falls behind. Maybe not all of these, maybe just some but we alone know who we are and what we are doing.

Jobs. This is where our lives are turned upside down. We want our dream job now and we strive to get it, building portfolios, showreels and many creative CVs. But sometimes non of it seems to make a difference. I am going to focus on one aspect of why we seem to fail at getting jobs. This aspect is why i fail to find a job and many i know who can relate. We all have a safety net, that one place we know we feel safe even when we know we should not be in there. Be it a neglected child, an only child, or simply the youngest child. Of course there are many reasons and ways we have safety nets but i am not a genius, i am not a philosopher, nor a psychologist. I am just a man trying to help people.

The neglected child wants to be loved, the only child wants a sibling and the youngest child wishes to have been a older child. In conjunction, the neglected child finds the seclusion a way of hiding away until some attention is thrown his/her way on which he/her thrives on; the only child finds safety in the attention of his/her parents; and the youngest finds safety in simply being the youngest, although they may have the elders to build up to as an expectation, they do indeed find safety in the protection of them. Many of us do this and these are major factors in why we don’t get jobs and often fail in other things. Of course there are many other reasons, but i am focusing especially on these for i have encountered these in life one time or another. It may seem a little farfetched but if i have experienced it then it is safe to say that it is exists and that i am not alone.

It is time to change things. It is time to become legends in the making, because trust me, we can. But we must start by throwing away our shackles. We must put ourselves into our fears. Fear doesn’t have to be something bad that we are scared of. A close friend of mines made me realise how much we fear the great things in life. How although it may sound weird, we fear getting the perfect job, we fear the overload of what are trying to get in the first place, we fear becoming any greater than we currently are. It’s amazing how we can fear the things we want. So, we sit there day in day out, applying for jobs without any real enthusiasm, any real motivation and any real determination. We can even go as far as making ourselves believe we have all of the above, when in fact we’re simply storing it, hiding it, fearing what might happen if enthusiasm, motivation and determination grips us and propels us forward.

It is time to put ourselves into our fears. Where the neglected child says,

“No more hiding in safety, it’s time to get my job, to start from the beginning and work my way up to greatness, and only then will i realise that i have friends and people around that will see me and be inspired; and no longer will i be alone or unloved.”

Where the only child says,

“No more using my parents as safety, it’s time to get my job, step out into the world and realise that amongst the crowds of humanity, i can stand out, i can meet people, become great and spread the knowledge and message around the globe because after all we are never alone.”

And where the youngest child says,

“No more hiding as youngest, no more using the safety of being smothered and protected by the elders, for in mind, i too am an elder and i believe it; and with this i will get the job i need right now to work my way up to greatness; and i can show the world that the timidness of the youngest can explode out over the globe in great awe.”

I hope you can see how these three case studies can be utilised for many others. It is time we stopped fearing about being in the world and experiencing the scary adventure that is laid in front of us. It’s time to believe in ourselves and simply step out there. Only once we are out there in the career wilderness will we gain the experience we need to travel further; and you never know what surprises you may find yourself in, what job you’ll find the opportunity to work in, and what people you’ll meet, and in return inspire. Our aspirations are not prisons, but the key to our success. Today marks the day i will no longer hide in my room, behind my computer, travelling only in cyberspace and waiting for my salvation. I am going out, reaching for my own salvation and becoming the legend i have always wanted to be.

Come, join me.

Thank you for reading.

Fear Can Be Useful… Sometimes

I have been pondering a lot about fear recently and the other day i was on a Dark Knight movie marathon and i came across something. I have always wondered about how bad fear is and how it puts us in some of the worst situations possible. I thought that overcoming fear of everything was the best way about it. This time while i was watching the last movie in the trilogy “The Dark Knight Rises”, it made me realise otherwise.

I used to think that fear was something that holds us back, stopping us from doing great things. Well, during the movie the notion of fear was brought up in a situation and then resolved with a very interesting theory. I thought that if i rid myself of fear then i could do anything i put my mind to. It is hear i realised that sure i could do great things if i put my mind to it but in certain situations fear becomes a requirement to take things that step further than all steps. It seems that fear can help us push ourselves to do things by utilising our maximum effort, strength, capacity and so on. Having no fear is like having a safety net beneath you in case you fall. It can mean that we may psychologically not do our best because we know we are safe. Take this safety net away and you’re left with the fear of falling. This means that to make the jump, we must put in all the strength we have into it, knowing that if we don’t, then we fall. The fear drives us to put everything we have into what we are about to do. This isn’t just about jumping from one cliff edge to another, but also in the context of trying to hand in something according to a deadline and the fear of failure making us put everything we have into getting that last piece of work in. Or running into a burning building from fear of losing someone. And the reasoning runs on into the infinite. Of course this is may not be something that happens on a daily basis but in those moments, it is there and it can be harnessed to an extent.

We all have something we fear, be it materialistic such as losing an object or money; or something deeper or more psychological like losing someone you love. I have discovered two fears of mine so far. One of them has already been mentioned, while the other is a more bodily constraint in the form of paralysis, which i believe came about from childhood in my love for all things Superman. Superman = Superman Movies = Christopher Reeve = Paralysis. Bizarro i know, but i think very highly of these two people, one materialistically real and one fictionally real. My worst dreams are the ones which physically constrain me in the form of full or partial paralysis and it is usually far worst when i am lucid dreaming and still cannot break from it. My fear of paralysis drives me to do more and be more active in everything i do, more than ever. Recently for many reasons i have begun a thorough training programme of exercise, for both mind and body (and maybe even soul). The other is to fight for and protect the people i love with everything i have.

So in the end, fear does not have to be a stopping force but can in fact be a driving force. Don’t let fear control your life, take your fears and use them to drive you further than ever, because you never know, one day, you may just fly.

Thanks for reading.

 

The Worst Nightmare Of My Life…So Far

I was sitting on a stool just minding my own business when a tingly sensation infiltrated through my body. I thought nothing of it and carried on with what i was doing. All of a sudden, with no other warning, my body froze and i feel from the stool to the ground face down. I couldn’t move. Everyone ran up to me and asked if i was ok and i replied,

“Don’t worry, it’s ok, i’m just in sleep paralysis.”

No one had a clue what i was talking about as this usually happens when i tell people something that breaks the boundaries of their world. I thought this was it but it got worse. My vision became blurry to the point where all was in soft focus and then even that became even worse to the point where all i could see was a blur of colours. I was blind. This couldn’t be real but nevertheless i began to panic a little. It couldn’t get any worse right? I was wrong. I began shouting to everyone for help. I was actually scared for once. As i shouted a burst of two extremely loud sound frequencies perforated my ear drums. One was a really low frequency and the other a really high frequency; together forming a bleeding melody from hell. The sound was never-ending and i found myself deaf. My ultimate fear of ultimate paralysis, where i cannot move, see or hear. I knew i could still shout but it didn’t matter anymore, all was lost.

I had to wake myself up. I knew i was dreaming, but why was i stuck? Was it the fear? I shouted at the top of my lungs once more and like an exit from a coma i awoke in the real world still screaming. It took a second before i realised my scream from the dream had continued into reality and so i stopped before anyone in the house had heard. My head pulsated in pain and my heart was pounding harder than ever but my body was still in sleep paralysis. My body lay dead and my arms crossed over my chest. I calmed down as my body melted from the sleep paralysis and after a few minutes i got up to drink some water.

I don’t get nightmares often. To be honest i am pretty sure this is my life’s third nightmare. This was by far the worst nightmare i have ever had. And the worst part was that this is the first time a nightmare has seeped so far into reality after waking up. Usually i am able to wake myself up from within the dream world earlier, or even embrace death in the dream, because death always wakes me up, even though i am left with the cause of death as a waking pain for the whole day; a downside to lucid dreaming. But this wasn’t death, this was torture and torture is always the worst.