It’s a Love Hate World

Hi awesome peeps! Long time no read. And darn, have i missed you all.

It’s amazing how much we can go through in such little time. How much we can change in no time at all. I realised that there’s always someone out there ready to bring you down, manipulate and ruin things for you, but we have the ability to parry those daggers of hate and pain away from us.

I had a few big arguments because of a person out there trying to make me angry, make me trip and result in me making the people i love hate me in return. With people out there like that hiding their cloak of lies and deceit, i have realised that we have a way to reflect that damage away from us so that we can do the things we want to and be with the people we love and maybe even repair the damages done because of them; in the hope that the person you care about will see through it all and see you in your true form. My journey has begun and i hope that i can one day repair the damages to indirectly show that deceitful person that i am unstoppable and show the person i care about that i have always cared and always will.

Another lesson learned.

Another step in the right direction.

Wherever it may lead next.

 

Troubles and Choices

Sorry for the lack of posts this side of the year folks. A lot has happened in terms of a lot troubles and choices (ah link to title… *person in the back row seat applauds, then immediate gets slapped*). So much to think about, so much to decide. Choices, do i, don’t i? What if? But then isn’t life just a string of what ifs waiting to happen, and should we really be waiting for what ifs? Wondering what consequences could occur, good or bad? If one should fight for it, or let it go forever? So much to think about. Sometimes it seems you are faced with two choices. One which will always be there and the other which will be gone forever. So then wouldn’t it be better to make the choice that could be lost forever? So if that choice turns out well, then hooray (person in the back row gets a jam tart), but if it doesn’t then we can always come back to the first choice and carry on from where we left off. I guess in the end it depends on how much you are willing to fight and sacrifice for it and how much it really means to you. Then put your fears in your pockets and take the chance.

So what will I do?

Simple. I will always take that chance, and if all fails and all is lost, then at least I know I tried.

Time to ready myself for a future of flux. Am I ready?…No. Am I ready knowing I am not ready?…Yes.

Thanks for reading.

 

A Purposeful Purpose

It has been a while since i have blogged. Mostly because i lost purpose. It happens to so many of us, unexpected and full of difficulties. A purpose it seems is that one thing that you know you want to and will do and will feel that if life had ended, that you would feel happy that you have done so. There seem to be many purposes too, not just the one life purpose but a career purpose and home purpose and self purpose and many others.

After my birthday went i had lost most of them but as time went by and things became much more alone, i realised that it is ok to not know. Not knowing doesn’t mean you are missing something. It means you have another surprise waiting for you. I do video editing, creative writing, a bit of web design, script writing, comic developing, drawing and am even trying to get into voice acting. So many things and i don’t even know which one is the real one or the one i meant to be living through, so i do all of them. right know i am feeling the writing more, but i always like drawing and video editing is a profession i seem to be good at. Sometimes wanting a purpose, wanting to feel like you have a dream that you can acquire is all you desire, takes up all your time. But i have realised that this is all possible.

The one thing that i have realised and embraced more than anything is you don’t have to force yourself, you don’t have to listen to the person telling you that you need to do this thing now and leave the others, whether it be you or someone else. No. All you have to do is know what you love. If you don’t know that then experiment and learn new things and i am sure you will find something, for i believe there is always something and someone for each of us. At one moment in time you will come across something or someone (not just career wise), and when you do just know that if you love doing this one thing or you love this one thing, then it is your passion for it that will help you through. Some may say “well how it passion going to make you successful”. The thing that so many forget is that to do things we often need a drive. Nope not a Jaguar, but passion is all we need. Passion is a form of motivation that drives us, and if you grasp it, it will drive you, motivate you and even be that strict priotiser that makes you work hard. Why would you strictly work hard? Because you love doing it. This aspiration becomes a force that will drive you so far forward. Sometimes we even have a passion to do things but there is still something missing. One example i am sure i will come across, is that sometimes we need someone to share the things we love, and that is another purpose, someone. This i believe is the hardest purpose in existence. But nevertheless it can all be achieved and no one in this world has to leave not having acquired these purposes.

At the end of it all it is okay to not know if you have a purpose in something or even in life, because when the time comes and you give it your best throughout, that purpose will be there visible or invisible. Just trust yourself, trust your passion.

 

The Mysterious Symbol